my first breakdown

September 15, 2010 in Uncategorized

6ish this morning, I sat in my bed crying because I felt so helpless with this eczema. This is my first breakdown in the pregnancy. Even the puking episodes pale in comparison now. At least, I usually feel better after hurling. But this, I see no relief at all.

Every night for the past few days, the itch would wake me up from sleep because it is so unbearable. Most of the time, I’m so tired I keep my eyes closed while I scratch and apply medication. I try not to open my eyes so that it’s easier to slip back to slumberland too.

Guess I lost it this morning. I started crying because I could not do anything about the itch. My hands and feet were painful to touch because I had put much Mopiko while I sleep. The fingers and toes were painful to bend as well. I felt really sorry for myself as I recalled how hard it is for me to walk with the rash under my feet, how tired I am with the interrupted sleep for nights, etc. The husb tried to console but I needed to let it all out.

Since the first signs of eczema at the toes and fingers appeared, the condition has now spread to a much larger area – the entire legs and arms. 😐 I have hence seen my gynae and got a referral to see a dermatologist. Now to hope that the medicine and ointment will work for me!

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